does not appreciate a single shites i did.

it just the matter how do one take care of themselves. yes, i do reeally have good friends with me, &the bad ones, i always show 'em to the right path. i mixed with them cos im too socialise with the people around me. i like meeting new people. so i think my life is not boring like yours. don't worry i mixed with good kids, &they love me because NONE in the family except IQAH loves me. problems were shared with them. I love everyone in the family, &i really do. hatred? NO. Period.

**

to you (she),
thnk you for all the while, you've been going around telling others that you love me, i love you. thanks eh. &end up you love someone else. so the moral of tis story, don't give your 100% love to someone. take care. im gonna miss you.

**

afterall, azeerah is a great friend to be with. great means, yet to be trusted.

bouyfen, you put a bright smile on my face.
zee darlink, i was working when you called.
jar, im just too sad to reply to your question.

there's a limit to my patience.

i used to be a daddy's girl, im born-ed to respect my parents &never in me, i will change to be the worst or worsen daughter ever. i know, being a good daughter is not easy, &in order to be a good sister, i must also shows some roles to the younger &the youngest. let make tis crystal clear, do what you want, &i'll do what i want, stop buzzing at my listening aid like one busy bee. i loves everyone in the family! hatred?NO.

today, i started my day, with a warm welcomed by mr abu, manager. he was glad to see me back. &i was glad to be the first one to reach work. the place stays, but the environment had TOTALLY changed. everyone (read: staff) talked bad things behind others (read: also staff). i totally hate what happened today, i couldn't control, &only GOD knows what i did, when i rushed to the toilet (cried). friendship are involved. i loves all my friends but do you think they care i care for them. &it all happened today, when one of the staff is quitting.

but, bouyfen came all the way to send me &meet me before he goes back to camp today. it was shocking to see him standing with a bag in front of workplace. hearts you, bouyfen. (=

breakfast.

concern is your middle name.


our breakfast.

ku punya.

kau punya.

adawiyah (cousin) is in hospital now, cos she cant breathe properly. hope she is doing fine, cos i would want to see your smile again. on wednesday, i'll start work properly. ¬ to worry housechores will still be under me. i missed all my friends.

finally.

Happy Birthday to you,

Happy Birthday to you,

Happy Birthday to NurDiyana,

Happy Birhday to you.

Yesterday, the families had our own gathering at costa sands chalet cum birthday party for the one and only Adek. It was fun again to see all the laughters of the family &the family welcomed djah, thx for coming taiks. The mini games for the kids, dangdut by the kids, the birthday cake, the theme for the party was "pyjamas", the bbq were awesome. &today im sorry im not coming because today is 20th May 2007. ((=

finally you're back. although i waited like about an hour alone at the arrival gate, it made me smile when i saw you. thanks ALLAH for bringing him home safely.

and guess whose invitation card zainal received today?

one more day babey.

new port: el-sheikh.

counting the days &waiting for you to be home soon.

kamu dan kamu

Ada dua cinta di hati
Belum bisa aku pastikan
Bila aku harus memilih
Sepertinya cinta takkan memilih

Goncangan jiwa makin hebat
Ruang hati makin bergoncang
Degup jantung semakin keras
Bila kubersama kamu dan kamu

Memang cinta tak bisa memilih dengan mata
Maka biar saja kunikmati perasaan ini
Biar waktu yang berbicara tentang semua
Pasti aku dan cintaku akan berlabuh

Ada dua cinta di hati
Biar saja ini terjadi
Selama aku bisa menyimpan rahasia kita hanya untukku

Ada dua cinta di hati
Belum bisa aku pastikan
Bila aku harus memilih
Say what?
Aku takkan memilih

we were wild wild wild.

wishing you...

A...



hari-hari pun hari ibu.

bring him home soon.

firstly, takziah to the family of allahyarham isz sazli bin sapari. he was my schoolmates back then in secondary school. such a smart guy &loves to smile &i would called him mr.smileyguy too. ALLAH loves you more, friend. oh man he was a 3rd sgt.
***

secondly, i would want bouyfen to be back home soon because after watching the news I was thinking about you &worry is the word. &minutes later, you called.

i was not well two solid days ago.


'kenduri' was fun lah with my families. gtg, i have to clean the house.

'alasan lah tuh'.

on sunday is mother's day. still i have not bought anything for mother. planned with kakak, to buy something for mumsie, but end up she was out today &went home without anything. "kad tak bawak lah, tak tau ape bende lah nak beli.". if only i got the $$ to buy, i will buy it long ago.

im happy for zee, cos she's happy.

i hope everything will be ouhkey there, bouyfen. take gud care, loves.

superb, asam pedas ikan pari.

i just don't want us to treat each other like strangers, i want her to treat me normally like we used to. i loves being around with you. in another words, take my hand, &forever you'll be in my heart. i misses you. PERIOD.

there'll be a mini 'kenduri' this weekend. i'll be busy by friday doing house cleaning &its a MUST.

its been 2 days since i last heard from you, you were busy with trainings &had no time to call up eh? (kesian).

el-sheikh-ing.


ive watched "jangan pandang belakang". when im buying the tickets to the show, i said to the auntie, "can i have 7 tickets to taakmu...ohh jangan pandang KE belakang" &the boys beside us, "ader ke kape". djah KETAWA KLUAR KUAT (lol) at me sia. so the storyline was ouhkey lah as in interesting. but the person who sat beside me, is a bitch, haha, i mean djah, she was all the way shouting at my ears &i followed her too, as she shout, i shout too. my cousin, azmi &his friends just knws how to make jokes &do funny noise.


well, just don't look back.


i met azhar, my primary mates &he is very hawt. PERIOD.FULL STOP.


&to muhammad im sorry, i watched the show without you. you still haven't accept my apology kan? okay naakkk djjaaahh tak? hehe. tapi.. kene trime maaf aku dulu?


i miss you bouyfen.

i miss tis guy &i really do, bouyfen.

so, im still waiting for my darling, djah to send me the pictures that we took &ani's birthday mini party. &the bangku kosong was very scary. earlier, i met filzz like again. haha. she was laughing her ass off when djah said "sop &saeb".

bouyfen called! so we managed to say hello, da mkn?, tg buat ape? got misme? jage diri. jgn gatal.missyou. come home soon. (i really don't mean it ouhkey). hehe.

i had to skip ugame coz my cuz moved house &she stays somewhere in simei. &after which, went to the hospital with family to visit nenek, who was admitted 4 days ago according to father, her high blood pressure went up again, &she is having high fever. ya ALLAH, kau selamatkan nenek ku.

Layar Keinsafan

Sepi benar senja ini
Bayunya semilir, menganak ombak kecil
Jalur ufuk pula mengemas terang
Kapal dan layar terkapar

Mengapa nantikan senja
Barukan terdetik, pulang ke pengkalan
Gusar malam menghampiri
Ku tewas di lautan

Tuhan layarkanku ke arah cintaMu
Tuntuniku menggapai redhaMu
Rimbunan kasihMu ku berteduh
KepadaMu ya Tuhan
Berikan secebis keinsafan
Bekalan sepanjang perjalanan
Mencari ketenangan

c/o
Biar Kau menjadi saksi
Tulus tangisku kala dini hari
Kesempatan yang hanya sebentar
Moga keikhlasanku terlakar
Berikanlah ku hidayah
Agar dikuatkan iman yang lemah
Moga diberkati hidup ini
Menuju bahagia yang kekal abadi

PadaMu Tuhan
Kan kuserahkan cinta kepadaMu

Harapanku moga dikurniakan
Manisnya iman berpanjangan
Moga lautan hilang gelora

counting the days.

bouyfen will be leaving singapore tomorrow's midnight. i wonder who, will be sending him to airport? ader org nak tlg antar kan tk? tlg angkat tangan. i won't be able to make it lah. if only i have the freedom. kesian lah pulak kan bouyfen.

because we're love.

welcomes may. &cepat2 lah 20 may oi. haha. bouyfen called me up today when he knew that i was still very upset for what's happening between us. by 5 minutes later he was already at the block nearby. well, i was very upset about the things happened around me not just bouyfen givving me headache but work, friends, close friends, trusted friends and etc. so we met, we sat, &we talked... yaada yada yadaaa. we've been through tis like 93630462094629473572 times. so like usual, i trust him alot, not just him i trust all friends but what do i get? i get 45673 shits. so he seek for forgiveness. im ccool. i forgive and forget.

tanhk ouy fiernsd.

oh as i was saying, i forgive and forget. but i won't forget my cam-whoring session with bouyfen. im just showing -off a picture of us. (cos masing muke busuk, i mean the rest also busuk lah.)

zee gwe kangen sama luh jugak sis. hehe.

ok something to show off. ok this is mira aka neng aka neng baizura. say hi ppl, to namira.